what am i doing

found a letter tucked inside one of my journals it's been there since the second week of december and i just read it tonight and reading it has made me feel a bit better and let me just say that my friend april is so nice and kind she's always listening to what i have to say and i have her back like she has mine and i am so glad to have met her

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the stupid thing about me though is that i can never seem to believe people genuinely like me like they only put up with me because they have to i am sorry i guess i don't trust people

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c--

you don't understand because you refuse to understand you do not give a shit all you think about is yourself

fuck you. fuck you very much.

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god i feel so forgotten and unimportant and lonely