i just--

• number of times i cried/almost cried during the past week: 10
• you don't tell me everything i don't tell you everything you and i will never understand each other
• i'm really scared of things going worse i mean i know they could go worse i don't know what to do why is life so hard why are all things shitty
• (as if knowing the reason behind all these crap would make things better nope nope it won't)
• i wish i was one of those people who had a best friend because i need someone to talk to and i guess i could message people and tell them things but i am a stupid girl who wants people to come to her and pat her back or something without explicitly asking for attention yes very stupid i know because why do i want that why do i want people to come to me they won't i am not important and also god i am so fucking needy and insecure and childish
• i feel so lonely
• i screwed up big time i still am screwing up big time