touch

lately i've been finding myself thinking about physical contact

• physical contact and how i crave it and how i don't get much of it
• over three years and i still remember what i felt as one boy played with my hair; it was so so so nice
• i used to hold hands with my friends all the time now we don't because 1. our friendships didn't last past high school or college (whichever is applicable) 2. we collectively and unconsciously decided to stop doing it. also 3. it is physically impossible to do it with the friends i have now because they live at least two hours away from me
• i get warm fuzzies every time someone i like initiates even the littlest of touches
• i wear short shorts / short skirts because i like wearing them and they make my legs look long (ha) and feel free to look but never ever ever touch me unless i want you to
• i go out a lot wearing whatever i want but 100% of the time i am scared because men are fucking pigs
• this will be the only time i will ever acknowledge this: what happened with s & how j has seen it. (someone pls shoot me in the head now)
• i-feel-you hugs and i-appreciate-you hugs and hello hugs and goodbye hugs
• will i get things more than hugs
• ah