Something happened during the second week of May because all of a sudden you exuded this aura (I guess?) that you no longer want to talk to me. I may not have ESP but I can sense that kind of thing-- it came from years and years of having a very shitty and messed-up portfolio of social interactions. You even started becoming buddy-buddies with the one person in this entire planet that I despise with every fiber of my being. You knew I disliked him. You knew that for the past 6 months he has not been treating with respect, he was not treating me like a person. You knew he went batshit crazy over something petty, something that up until now he resents me for even when I did not intend to hurt him AND I do not even understand why he got so riled up like that. You knew all those things. I never made you stop being friends with him though. Who you hang out with is your choice, and I am not a person who impedes on other people's choices. BUT you started becoming very close to him and incidentally that was also the week you started to ignore me...
I really don't know what I did or what I said because we were okay. We even had fun at the beach together with our other friends before you changed, and from what I remember that weekend was perfect. You just became this new person immediately after that trip.
Weeks passed and yesterday, the last day of May, we sort of started talking again. For about three minutes. Then we both ended the conversation. A few hours after that I saw you and I knew you wanted to talk to me but you didn't try to. (Yes, I was observing you okay. Yesterday was the worst day of my life careerwise so I wasn't up to doing anything work related). But still, I saw it. And it made me realize how I missed being your friend. A lot.
I got the impression during that 3 minute talk that maybe you don't have problems with me and maybe, just maybe, you weren't really ignoring me and I was just reading too much into things. I thought I'd extend an olive branch and make things okay with us again. So this morning I texted you and asked to hang out. While it seemed you were up to it at first, you backed down at the last minute and said "tinatamad ako eh."
Okay.
(and then I replied with "okay" and nothing else")
But when I said "okay" it meant "wow I thought we're good after what happened yesterday but I guess I was wrong; I thought we were going to be friends again; sorry, I won't bother you again."
So yeah. Sorry. I don't know what your deal is and what is it that happened between us that made you hate me so much, but I guess that's it, friendship over. I get it now. I assure you I won't ever try to talk to you again.
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